the new

my first blog, pheww!! never thought i would actually do it.. but yet here i am..

i am a lil crazy sometimes ppl say i am.. but at the same time. shy.

i get alot of ppl call me intimidating for some reason which i cant figure out till now.

the real reason i thought of creating a blog was an inspiration by one of my bestie, marsha..

i love food. i love talking about them, tasting making new recipies. and i alos have passion for music.. i now can play piano, organ and currently self teaching guitar. i'm very curious about things.

most of the times they are complicating thats why its all up in my head..

enough abt that.. running out of words to say abt it..

well, things between 2008 and 2010 taught me alot of things. it made somewhat stronger. wiser. as they say., what doesnt kill you only makes you stronger. well i really dont have much words now. but here's a poetry about someone i lost recently.. but not to death.. just in ife.. i do write stuff alot.. most of which are poetry.. composed songs.. just nvr had the guts to record them.. who know someday i'll change oh so drastically and post them.. wait and see.. lol

i sit alone in my room
and tears slowly falls from my face
thinking bout all the moments we had
memories floods my head
images drown in my eyes
as sorrow pulls me in its chamber
i surrender

i made a promise to live with you forever
i was so sure it's you that will i give my all
till i'm dead and gone
even if death steals me away from you
with God's permission i'll continue loving you

19th october 2008 was the day my life began
a new breath of real and absolute life was given
for we were offically together
for there was no more sorrows i thought
because you were the angel heaven sent from above
to make my life happy
16th january 2009
was the day so beautiful nothing could compare
it was filled with uncomparing love,undescribale feellings

16th january 2009 was when i was sure
very sure, that you are my forever
as you held me close
and whispered softly to my ear
i love you, i'll never leave you
a promise, seal with a kiss so sure
that anyone would believe

the memories kept building good or bad
we got through it all
with the armor of our love protecting us
we got pass it all with victory
endure was your favorite word
and it always kept me strong

21st january 2010
was when my life ended
filled with undescribable sorrow
tears flowed out like a storm
that wouldnt stop
but i was still breathing
i couldnt understand why
why it all happen
reasons given were unacceptable
you left, broke your promise
and broke me even more with your cruel and heartless words
more broken at the sight of you
with a girl, i could say nothing about
there is nothing else that can mend
the pieces of my shattered heart again
only you hold the cure
for your love is the essence of my life
mixed emotion filled this fragile body
hands shiver and legs were weak
the thought of you gone forever
rage, sadness dwelled in my heart


if only i could speak to you,
a chance i would die for with no doubt
these i would say;

i'm sorry for the tears i've caused time and time again
heard this words many times before
but this times its different coz i mean it more than ever
i'll wait for you
even if it takes forever
i cant compare you to anyone
i just cant