never say never

life has brought me joy again! i'm so happy things are ok again i can cope with it.. i hope it last long.. i miss the peaceful times.. 

when life gives you lemons..

i never thought that he would be thinking about me but he did!! it was shocking!! i was hoping he would say lets try again the whole time we were talking sadly he didnt.. hmm i was in the exact seat and theater and i drowned in memories.. hmmm.. sometimes i think life just absolutely loves hitting you and catching you off guard.. well.. all we can do is move on.. nothing we can do.. and work hard for what we want.. 


someone asked me recently whats true love i said its when you cant live without that person its when you feel empty when they are not around.. its when you wanna shout at the top of your lungs that you love them.. its when you're no afraid of the world when you're in their arms.. but.. thats just a slight glimpse of it.. not even close.. its way so much more.. =) 


funny how things reminds of you of things.. i love them.. but sometimes it hurts.. but i cant run.. i know that.. so i sing it out..  music calm me.. whether is pressing the rhythmic keys on the piano or strumming the strings on the guitar.. the soft melody warms my heart.. i learnt to cope..

a thing or two

its been a month since i've blogged.. i finally have inspiration.. alot has happened in a months.. its been more than 3 months since i spoke to *.. just started talking.. but everyone thinks i'm ok.. but i'm not.. coz the things * tells me hurts and i'm still trying to learn to cope with it.. i can only pray for a sign.. and how that i can see it.. i'm trying to be as positive as possible.. though in this month it has been hard i thank God for exams a chance to stop me from thinking about the hurt. 


first off.. i out my song writing on hold for a little while..that was the beginning of the month.. just caught up with it.. wrote 2 in 2 days.. 
second.. just finish three weeks of stressful exams... that was a load off
third.. keeping my mind off things by drowning myself with work.. studying.. helping around here and there.. like making 100 name tags hand written.. yeah not that wise but it helps.. 
fourth.. camp was great! its our last so i'll be missing everyone.. but i believe as we part there will always be a time where we will meet again..


lately alot of people are hurting me and pissing me off.. i try to ignore them.. with God's help i hope i can.. 


question.. when you see me do i look sad? though i'm smiling?
people keep telling me that i look sad.. burdened.. maybe i am.. 
i dont know.. my good friend keeps telling me to live life for myself..
and so i'll try.. i'll try to be the main character of my life  now.. 
and lastly i thank God for the people he has brought in my life to allow laughter in my life after one is gone.